自感不如别人而内心惭愧。

feel ashamed of ones inferiority

指外表上看似宽宏，内心却多忌刻。

appear liberal but be jealous

秀：秀丽；慧：联盟。外表秀丽，内心聪明。

beautiful and intelligent

象刚从梦中醒来。比喻过去一直糊涂，在别人或事实的启发下，刚刚明白过来。

as if one were coming out of darkness into the light of day as if one were waking from a dream

永记心头的深仇大恨。

inveterate hatreddeep-seated hatred

形容心境平静，毫无杂念。同“心如止水”。

Mind calm like still water

形容力量或声势非常浩大。

hold back rivers and overturning seas/overturning rivers and seas

死灰：已冷却的灰烬。原指心境淡漠，毫无情感。现也形容意志消沉，态度冷漠到极点。

ones heart is like dead ashes hopelessly apathetic

因人的不同而有所差异。

vary with each individual it differs from man to man

惴：忧愁、恐惧。形容因害怕或担心而不安。

be anxious and fearful

眼泪鼻涕满脸乱淌。形容极度悲伤。同“涕泗横流”。

Tears and nasal mucus streaming everywhere

内心痛苦得象刀割一样。

grief-stricken

形容万分思念。

Soul is haunted by dreams

良：美好；辰：时辰。美好的时光和景物。

beautiful scene in a good day

看到某种情况而内心伤悲。

Heart-wrenching at the sight

触：碰；即：就。原指把箭扣在弦上，拉开弓等着射出去。比喻事态发展到了十分紧张的阶段，稍一触动就立即会爆发。

imminent crisis

忍受耻辱，苟且求生。同“忍垢偷生”。

Enduring shame to survive

犹言力不从心。心里想做，可是力量够不上。

hand could no longer act as ones heart directed

心、意：心思；回、转：掉转。重新考虑，改变原来的想法和态度。

change ones mind

垆：酒肆放置酒坛的土台子，借指酒店，酒馆。又见到了黄公开的那个酒馆。比喻人见景物，而哀伤旧友，或作为伤逝忆旧之辞。

Huang Gong's wine stall